Sick world

http://www.cnn.com/2009/CRIME/11/16/north.carolina.missing.girl/index.html

Can someone please explain to me how this could happen. HOW on Earth could anyone want to hurt a child??? Let alone the precious little girls own MOTHER!!! I could bawl. Honestly when I read this I felt like I had been socked in the stomach with a baseball bat. Bless this poor angels heart. I would say shoot the mother but a simple shooting and quick death is far too good for this sick woman.

May she sing with the angels in Heaven where she is no longer in pain.

First off...what the hell kind of add is this? Mondays are bad enough but then I see stupid shit like this and wish it would make me laugh because it is so effin' stupid but instead it irritates the ever living shit out of me. What the hell are they trying to get across?




OK...enough on that. Things are moving right along here. Nothing extremely exciting to report. Our weekend was good and quick. I took Morgan and her friend McKenna to the movies Saturday to see "A Christmas Carol". That movie scared the jeebus out of me. Really, it should be rated PG-13 for the scary ass animations. I was upset with it honestly but whatever. I would advise people to NOT go see it.


Scott and I went to see "Law Abiding Citizen" with Gerard Butler. That name enough was good for me to go and pay my money to see him strip down.








Honestly, I would have been the arresting officer in this movie COMPLETELY FREE! How much did they pay these people? I am sure it was an ass load of money and I am VOLUNTEERING my services free of charge people. I want to help you out and save you some money. I promise I won't sneak a lick in. Girl Scouts Honor.

My date tonight

I have a date tonight with this. Good Lord...whatever am I going to do when this season is over. Thank you for Sons of Anarchy. My husband wants to thank you too :D

Tuesday night is my favorite night of the week. You can bet your booty that I am hurrying as quickly as I can to make sure my kids are tucked in safe and sound by 9pm.

Toddler Sawyer

Gosh I am a pathetic sap..just posting these I need to frickin' kleenex...anyhow, here is one source of my sappiness:

My big boy


Awww, mom I miss my hair

I told him to tell mommy what the dinosaur says & his reply was a very scary "RAWRRRR"

I am totally innocent mom, I will NEVER do anything wrong

What? You don't believe me?

Xanax Martini Please

Wow...I am not PMS'ing or anything but I have been a blubbering fool for the past several days. I guess my hormones are shifting or something. Saturday I decided to go ahead and cut little man's hair. Why? I have no clue. I was loving it getting long but I was also seeing all of the clean cut-GQ looking pictures that I had been using when I made my scrapbook pages for him. So I decided to give Scott the go ahead. As with everything else, he was perfect. Sure he got all squirmy off and on but mostly he just sat there while I played with him and he let daddy go to town.

When Scott was done I wanted to bawl. It is absolutely amazing to me what cutting hair can do for a person/child. Sawyer went from my baby to my toddler boy. I want my baby boy back therefore it is growing back. Period. I don't like him looking grown up. I took a few pictures at home and I will post them this afternoon. I think I took the pictures, uploaded them and ignored them. I don't like him looking so grown up...I am NOT ready for my last baby to not be a baby anymore. Look, I know it happens. I know it WILL happen, I am just not ready right now, thats all.

Great, I am typing this blog & here is the email I get:

Hint much? I get it. I will work on it. Today however, is not.the.day. Period. I am in too much of a sappy slump right now. Leave me alone.

OK..on a positive note, the weather was beautiful Sunday. Scott was doing is hunting thing so I was lucky enough to have the kids by myself. Typically when I type that I am being sarcastic. Not this time. I really enjoyed them Sunday. We had company Saturday night so it was nice to have alone time with them. I took them for a walk and enjoyed the 70 degree weather and then we came back home and made a crayon shavings masterpiece. We truly had a good day yesterday. I made an awesome pot of chili and it was back to routine (not complaining)

Today is Monday. Postive = my boss just left and won't be in until Thursday. Yipee, time to do some more scrapbook pages and play on the computer more than usual! I need that!

One of those days

OK..we have all had them. You know what I am talking about...one of those days that is honestly a 'fairly good' day but you just can't seem to dig yourself out of this dump you found yourself in. I have those days once in a while and normally I have reasons that can explain them. Mother Nature, bills, kids, sick, etc.. Today, I just have no mother flippin' clue why I am so sappy. Honestly my day was GREAT until Scott irritated me and it was all down hill from there. Really, he knows the right thing to say and the perfect way to say it to get under my skin.

We bicker just like the rest of 'em but I can honestly say that lately we have been bickering less than usual. **Hold on** A light bulb just went off, let me go check weather.com really quick. OK..nope, its not a full moon tonight. HA, I was going to try and blame it on the moon. Whatever, I just am irritable. Anyhow, Morgan's friend McKenna (the little witch) that we took trick-or-treating with us came in my office after lunch and brought me a dozen roses to say "Thank You" for always having her over and taking her to do stuff with us all the time. Awww, how very sweet.

I admit, I had to fight back tears but it truly made my day. Magically my husband doesn't irritate me quite so bad. Magically my job doesn't annoy me today quite as much as it did when I first got here this morning. Wow, I need roses more often.

Anyhow, that is today in a nutshell. Kids are doing great, my house is super clean and it is FRIDAY! I pay a cleaning lady every other Friday to come and clean my house. I can honestly say that it is some of the best $50 I ever spend. Really. It takes a HUGE load off of me. This lady is awesome. For about a year I had a very scatter-brained woman that my mother used who would clean my house. Not regularly, believe me. She NEVER would keep her schedule and she was very hit and miss with the cleaning. She didn't even do that good of a job. Anyhow, she flew town. I have zero clue where she went either. She left several people high and dry but whatever.

Point being is that we couldn't find any "reasonably priced" cleaning lady. Everyone was too high and I didn't like them. Well, my mom found this lady and I was so grateful because she lives right by me and charges the same as the other lady. She KEEPS her schedule plus takes checks so I don't have to be inconvenienced by going to the bank and getting cash just.for.her.

This lady rocks. She cleans a billion times better than the other lady PLUS she is reliable. SO...that made my Friday better just going home at lunch and seeing how dang clean my house was. My big thing with my house is my floor. Our house is 95% Spanish tile. Beautiful, yes. A huge pain in the but to keep clean, hell yes! She deep cleans my floors and it makes it so much more manageable for me.

We have no major plans for this weekend so I am looking forward to no time limits and no plans!

Here is a picture of my beautiful roses..thanks McKenna!

More updates :D

I am catching up with little man. This first one is the only one I see that I have messed up so far..I put a button over the 9 in 2009. I will mark on the back of it when I print it up before I laminate it! Anyhow...here are a few more pages:

I had to make a small one of my pregnancy

My 2009 page of my man

I just can't get used to it

Look really closely at the picture. Yes, that is my nephew. My 9-year old nephew. What? I about fell over last night when I had this friend request on my Facebook. I know our kids are very computer savvy but this shocked the hell out of me.

First off, he says his date of birth is 1990...sorry hunny, try 10 years later...2000! Also, he lists several employers and several High Schools attended as well as colleges. At first it cracked me up. I called his mom this morning to let her know since I didn't see her OR his dad on his friends list. She said that she found out later that evening about this but I just wanted to make her aware because you never know.

I know I am a paranoid mother/aunt but I don't agree with Facebook for younger kids. I would never tell her how to raise her kids so if this is cool with her...have at it. I will NOT let Morgan have a Facebook. I hear too many horror stories. Anyhow, that is my shocker of the day!

Playing catch-up stinks. I have always been great at pictures and keeping up with Morgan's scrapbook and both kids baby books. Well, as with everything else, I have been slacking! I have decided to make Sawyer a scrapbook like Morgan's and so I am trying to get things together for his. Here are some of my new creations: I hope there will be plenty more to come!
Morgan's 2009 page:

Sawyer's 1 year page:

For Mommy:

Really, every single day with my kids is a blessing. Between jobs, my house, school activities, stress, my house, my job, OK...you get the picture...anyhow, between everything it is very easy for me to get overwhelmed. This weekend was a refreshing eye-opener as to how much I truly do enjoy my life. Hectic as it may be, my kids are on a great routine that allows a great balance for them and leaves enough free time for alone time for me and Scott.

We have been playing games every single night for the past several weeks with Morgan before bed to give her that alone time with us that she needs. I admit...I need that alone time with my baby girl too.

I equally smooch up Sawyer. OK...he IS a baby boy so I have to admit that the smooching isn't equal. I kissed Morgan up for 8 years by herself. I do feel guilty sometimes because I just can't quit kissing Sawyer. Really. No matter what I do, that space between his neck and cheeks gets me every.single.time. The kid is so dang kissable.

It makes me sad because I never thought Morgan would outgrow the kissable phase but I have to admit...sadly she has. It is harder than I expected. She is about to be 10 and while that is still young..it is also at an 'in between' phase. She is maturing and is sucks big time. I am so very much NOT ready for the road to puberty and the ever dreaded teenager-phase. I just hope and pray daily that Scott and I give her enough solid ground to stand on so that she knows that no matter what, she can ALWAYS come to us. I do have to admit that she has proven to me so far that she does trust me in that way...which is a teeny tiny bit of peace of mind.

Morgan will always be my baby girl. I can remember 19 months ago today wondering if I could love this child I was about to give birth to as much as I love Morgan.

Oddly, yes. I love Morgan different though. It is weird. Morgan was my 'only baby' for 8 years so we have something I will never have with Sawyer. We have a bond. I don't think it is a "mother/daughter" bond either. I think it is a bond that was formed when we HAD ONLY EACH OTHER. I am not sure but someday maybe I will figure it out.

My baby boy is loved in a different way. A baby boy way. That is the only way I can explain it. He is my strong, resilient, lovable, squeezable, stinky, snuggly little boy. He is a mommy's boy for sure and I hope it stays that way. Morgan really has always been a Daddy's girl...odd, but even when he was gone, her heart was always daddy's! I didn't care...she was always and will ALWAYS be my baby girl!

Halloween 2009

My little squaw helping out her wild Banshee Indian in training


Pretty Indian Princess Morgan

My little trick-or-treaters The adorable witch is Morgan's friend McKenna

Morgan & McKenna

Ready to get some candy!

Beating a drum...he was very 'in to' this!

Finished...mission accomplished!

Honestly, this Halloween went WAY better than what I expected. My kids had a blast & were both very good! Sawyer wasn't having any of it at first because his costume was itchy. So I put on a black long-sleeved shirt underneath with a pair of black lounge pants & we were good to go!

Morgan's friend McKenna wanted to go so we invited her & they did great. She & Morgan get along wonderfully & Sawyer is in love with her. He says "Kenna" constantly when she is around! It is too stinking cute.

Saturday I didn't have motivation to do squat. Grocery shopping was enough and then I knew I had to reserve enough energy to make it through Halloween! We rented X-Men Wolverine for the evening and I have to say...it was worth it. That movie rocked!

Sunday proved to be much more productive after the lunch hour! I got tons done and organized! The kids adjusted wonderfully to the time change too so that was a major plus!

Here is a funny story...Saturday Sawyer came up to me and said "Potty" while grabbing his diaper. I haven't even broke out the potty chair but I decided to at that moment. I got his potty chair down...I sat down to go potty and in my amazement, I sat Sawyer down on his big boy potty and AMAZINGLY he went! What? I thought it was a freak accident but I went with it! We made a huge deal out of it and later that afternoon, he came up to me and did the same thing.

I put him on his potty & once again..he went. I am dumbfounded...he is 19 months old. Do I go ahead & try to potty train? I bought stuff just in case but I am letting him come to me. We will see where this goes! Anyhow, a new week..bring it on!